Week 20 came and went with a zero on the scale, but that was completely okay. I still stuck to my points, exercised, and did my thing. Zeroes happen and I refuse to allow them to derail me, or even disappoint me for more than 2.2 seconds. So on I moved!
Week 21 had a lot going on with the girls' dance recitals and a few other things. I missed a couple of days' work outs and that's okay too. Life is always changing and we have to change with it. I got right back to it once things settled down and didn't beat myself up over it. But I did feel a little"off" because of it if that makes any sense.
Weigh-in day. I've been anticipating, wishing for, wanting that 50 pounds mark so bad I can taste it for a couple of weeks now. Today was the day! Today the scale revealed a 3 pound loss, which puts my total at 52 pounds!!! I'm over the moon! 100, I'm comin' after you next! :-)
Note: My list was getting very long, so I'm going to start posting from week 20 here. If you want to see the stats from weeks 1-20, check out any post before this one.
Week 20: 287, -0 lb./-49 lb. total
Week 21: 284, -3 lb./-52 lb. total
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Saturday, May 11, 2013
One Determined Mama
My sister and I had a converstion this week about willpower and determination. I told her I wish I could bottle mine up and give it to those struggling to lose weight who really need it. We all know it doesn't work that way, but it the conversation did get me thinking.
I've lost 50 pounds twice before on Weight Watchers. Both times I had barely hit that milestone when I found out I was pregnant (with Joshua, then Aaron). As proud as I was to be 50 pounds down, finding out I was pregnant was a relief. It gave me a reason to quit! Both times I struggled to stay on track after the first 6 weeks or so, and both times I could feel myself unraveling toward the end, and fast. Being pregnant was the perfect cover-up. No one ever had to know how close I had come to throwing in the towel and reverting to my old ways.
I haven't wavered in my resolve this time. My determination hasn't faltered. Some days/weeks are harder than others, sure, but I haven't once wanted to quit. What's the difference? Why am I not falling apart right about now?
December 29th I woke up, in more ways than one. I've said I literally opened my eyes that morning and said, "I'm done. Enough is enough." And it's true, I did. But I really believe God shook me that morning, saying, "You've been praying for change, for peace, for so long... it has to start with you. YOU must do this because you are more than capable and I won't do this for you or you'll never see how strong and able you really are." That's the difference. Not that He pushed, as I'm sure He had been pushing for quite a long while, but that I listened and embraced it.
You all know I'm sooooo close to 50 pounds lost. I would have loved to step on the scale this morning to find I had made it there, but I saw a 2 pound loss instead and I am not disappointed. I have lost 49 pounds and will hopefully be celebrating my 50 this time next week!
Starting weight: 336 lb.
Goal weight: 150 lb.
Week 1: 328, -8 lb.
Week 2: 325, -3 lb./-11 lb. total
Week 3: 323, -2 lb./-13 lb. total
Week 4: 317, -6 lb./-19 lb. total
Week 5: 314, -3 lb./-22 lb. total
Week 6: 312, -2 lb./-24 lb. total
Week 7: 312, -0 lb./-24 lb. total
Week 8: 306, -6 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 9: 306, -0 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 10: 306, -0 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 11: 304, -2 lb./-32 lb. total
Week 12: 300, -4 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 13: 300, -0 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 14: 300, -0 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 15: 298, -2 lb./-38 lb. total
Week 16: 295, -3 lb./-41 lb. total
Week 17: 293, -2 lb./-43 lb. total
Week 18: 289, -4 lb./-47 lb. total
Week 19: 287, -2 lb./-49 lb. total
Saturday, May 4, 2013
No Quitters Here
90 days. I have worked out exactly 90 days since the end of December. 5 days a week for 18 weeks is 90 days.
A few weeks into working out I remember saying to Mom, "I really don't want to exercise, but I do it anyway. Will there come a time when I want to do this?" She said there would but I'm not sure I believed her.
This week we were talking about my weight loss and progress and it occurred to me that somewhere along the way it had happened. I am now someone who likes to work out. I no longer dread it. In fact, I crave the satisfaction I feel at the end of a workout. I love the way it makes me feel, physically (incredibly strong) and mentally (strong, but also accomplished and clear-headed). It happened without my even realizing it.
That's not to say it's been easy-going. There have been more than a few workouts that made me cry. Runs are insanely hard. I've cried during 3 of those. But you know what? I NEVER quit. Not once. I kept going until the workout was done. I used to be a quitter. Not anymore.
Today's weigh-in: I stepped on the scale hoping for something. Anything. I'm getting so close to 50 pounds lost I'm becoming anxious and a tad impatient - 2 things weight loss doesn't care about. I was pleasantly surprised to see a 4 pound loss which put me at 289 - out of the 290's! Only 3 pounds to go until I meet me first 50 pound goal, woohoo!
Starting weight: 336 lb.
Goal weight: 150 lb.
Week 1: 328, -8 lb.
Week 2: 325, -3 lb./-11 lb. total
Week 3: 323, -2 lb./-13 lb. total
Week 4: 317, -6 lb./-19 lb. total
Week 5: 314, -3 lb./-22 lb. total
Week 6: 312, -2 lb./-24 lb. total
Week 7: 312, -0 lb./-24 lb. total
Week 8: 306, -6 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 9: 306, -0 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 10: 306, -0 lb./-30 lb. total
Week 11: 304, -2 lb./-32 lb. total
Week 12: 300, -4 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 13: 300, -0 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 14: 300, -0 lb./-36 lb. total
Week 15: 298, -2 lb./-38 lb. total
Week 16: 295, -3 lb./-41 lb. total
Week 17: 293, -2 lb./-43 lb. total
Week 18: 289, -4 lb./-47 lb. total
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